Dear Hubs

Can you freaking care less that your pregnant wife, is lying in bed next to you crying? Because she's in horrible pain and can't move? I don't think you can! That is how I felt last night. Lying there, tears streaming out my eyes. You don't even recognize that I hurt and your dumbass keeps asking me I want to have sex? Fuck no I don't want to have sex. You freaking idiot. I was beyond pissed for a while after he finally got the effing clue. Thankfully I passed out from exhaustion. And slept ok, but not great. I feel like he has no sympathy at all for me. LO was kicking me in my freaking cervix and OMFG that hurts like a mother. Plus that I serious back pain and a flare up of round ligament pain. OK. I am going to let my whine/vent stop for now. But geez Hubs get there freakin clue sooner next time and leave me alone.

Listen here body

Please, I am begging you to let me freaking sleep. I am so tired, exhausted and emotional because you decide to play insomniac 4 out of the 7 days per week. Dammit. I know you are trying to prepare me for when baby boy is born. But this has gone way too far. I mean, I know that lil mr may keep me up at night, but I don't think he will be nearly as horrible as you are treating me right now. I hope that he sleeps as well as big brother did when he was a newborn. That is all I ask, is that too much for you too cooperate with me? I really hate having to depend on taking Tylenol PM to sleep at night. FU body, FU!!!

So it's been a while

I know, I know. I am so super lazy. But I honestly havent' felt like updating. Til today. I ordered a quilt to xstitch for lil man. It's going to take FOREVER. But I will finish it. I won't give up because it's frustrating the living crap out of me. It's super cute. I lurve it.

Not a whole lot is going on thats new. I al 31.5 weeks now. Holy shit only 8 weeks to go. Maybe. I can't wait til he's born. I am ready to meet him and take on the adventure of being a mom of 2. I admit I might be bald for the first few months with both of my boys. But you know what? It's hair. It grows back! Amazing I know. Who would have thought?

I am really contemplating asking my doctor to give me an excuse to get out of work at about 36-37 weeks. I am so overly exhausted. Working 10 hour days really sucksass when you're pregnant. Even though I know ppl do it everyday. I just can't. I don't have the drive. lol. If I didn't need to work. I wouldn't. I probably wouldn't have to work if we'd learn to budget a little better. We do good for a little while. Then screw it up all over again. We've finally cut up our cc's and stopped using them. They are finally going down. Thank goodness. That is where we were the dumbest. In my honest opinion. But it will go away with time. We're on a good track. Digging ourselves out of the whole of debt we've dug for ourselves. Which feels nice. We have decided anything we want to buy. We save for a couple months and pay cash for. No more using credit lines. The only feasible one I will keep is our bestbuy account. Because they always have no interest for 18 months. Which I know we can pay off well before that hits.

Well I am done for today. I will update and finish my most interestingly boring update at another time lol

Oh fun!

So I had my 28 week appointment this morning. Where it was confirmed that I do in fact have gestational diabetes. Which sucks ass. But I'll deal accordingly. I have an appointment with a GD nurse tomorrow morning at 9am. She's going to teach me how to use my glucoma monitor and how to "take care" of myself. We'll see how this goes.

This is going to be a huge transition for me. I am happily taking on the life style change. Because I need to for my own health. Even after baby boy comes. Because of the PCOS it will be better for me even after he's born to keep my diet and exercise regimen. Well the excercise isn't so much rihgt now but after he's born. When I get the clear to start working out again. I am so going to. I know I need to lose weight. I know I would feel 10 mil times better if I did. But that's the update for today. I will update again tomorrow after my appointment. Or after work. I don't know yet.