So, I called the dr..

about my never ending cycles, you know what the fucking nurse tells me. Take some ibuprofen for the cramps and call me back next week if it's still happening. W...T...F? is wrong with that picture. Just about every freaking thing.

This pisses me off. I have never ever had problems like this. I really think my IUD is fucking me up.

Shit shit shit.

I wish this would stop

I have pcos. No it's not a known fact by all. I am a pretty private person and people don't need to know what's going on with my lady parts unless I deem it necessary. Anywho, every since I had Caleb. I have been so screwed up, it really sucks. Weird cycles, if you can even call it a cycle. It seems like every time I get pregnant and have a kid, the symptoms get worse after I have given birth.

I hate this shit. I am in pain about 70% of the time from cramps. I don't know what the F my body is doing but it needs to stop, like yesterday. Boo hiss. I guess I just needed to whine and let it be known.

Sookie Stackhouse

I just started reading this series. I lurve it so far. At first I liked Bill. He seemed like a nice guy. Now that I am getting further into the series, he is turning into a big creep. I don't see what sookie see's in him. I know ladies and gents. He is a fictional character, but still.

For now, I like Alcide.

I really think that sookie needs to be with Eric. He seems so much more a fit to her than VB. Because of him, she always get into sticky situations. She is Charlaine Harris's own version on Stephanie Plum. I think so anyways. I have made it to the 4th book. I can't wait to get through the rest of them, but I know I will be disappointed when it's over because I want to read more.

Lazy Sunday

Today, it's lazy, there's nothing else to describe it. I feel like I haven't slept in about a decade. I don't know why I am so tired. I think I lost my caffiene buzz and spiraled down into the bottom of the black hole of sleep deprivation. The funny thing is that my sleep deprivation isn't because I have a 7 month old baby, it's because I have a hard time sticking to a normal sleep routine and I have to get up at the buttcrack of dawn to go to work.

I can't wait for my shift to change at work. I don't like my coach(supervisor). In my personal opinion she sucks at the job. I haven't hardly had any feedback on how I am doing. If I haven't had that, how the eff am I suppose to improve? There's a lot of people on my team that don't care for her. I think we're all ready to move on and get a fresh start, away from her.

I guess this whole post is random. They are all pretty much random. Maybe I don't update often enough to stick to one subject. Is this suppose to tell me something? Hum, is this a sign? Should I start blogging more. I want to, I know it's a great release. But honestly. I don't feel like I ever have anything important to contribut to the world, or the interwebz.

I love it

So recently, I started reading the Sookie Stackhouse series by Charlaine Harris. I must say that I love it. It's super addicting and easy to read. I can definitely see why everyone loves Eric.
I am only on the 2nd book right now. I am excited to get through the other 7 of them though. I love long series. It just really sucks when they come to an end though.
I would write more but I don't want to spoil anything for anyone that wants to and hasn't read them before.

<3

Damnit

In the midst of moving, I packed away the book I have all my poetry written in. I'm not even sure where to look for it right now. When I do find it. I will definitely put a blog for it.

on a sidenote. I hate moving. Even though I know we will be moving one more time this year. Then hopefully not for a long while after that. this last move was really last minute and kind of unexpected, we literally decided to move and finshed moving within 3 weeks. Holy crap has life been kind of hectic the last month. But we made it, that is all that matters, right?

I will update more soon.

I miss it

So, when I was a teenager, miserably happy. I use to write poetry. I was quite good at it. Then I met J and I lost the will. I don't know if I wrote because it was my only release, because I was lonely and had craptastic parents, or what exactly stemmed my writing abilities. I do know that I miss having that release, no matter how hard I try, I can't do it. My mind isn't in the right place for it I guess.

I am thinking of putting all my poetry in a blog. Just because I don't have it saved anywhere. I don't want to lose it. What if it burnt up in a fire? I would never have them again.

I honestly don't think anyone reads this blog, but it's here, take it or leave it.

A promise to myself

Since 2010 is now amoung us. I have decided to make a promise to myself. Let's just hope that, in the end, it doesn't end up being broke. Because honestly. I have a hard time sticking to anything. This is something I am really going to work at. Give it my all and keep on top of. Is it sad that I can't depend on myself enough to know that I will follow through with it.

Well here it goes. I am promising to myself, that I will save as much money as I can within the next 6 months. I havent evaluated what we will be able to put into savings yet Once I do that. I will develop a master plan and a set dollar amount to have in my bank about by July first. Yes, I know that is the 7th month of the year, but we have some priorities that need to be taken care of before this can happen.

I have always sucked at saving money. We went into this winter with little to no reserve or savings account knowing that J's job would be slowing down. Yes, we've been in some tough spots the last couple of months. But we are now in a better place and position to put money away and be prepared for next winter.

We recently moved, to help us save money. It is a whole hell of a lot cheaper than what we were doing before. This will help us pay down some debt and get back on our feet. Where we will be more comfortable. Digging yourself a financial hole is no fun. Especialy when the reprecussions finally come kick you in the ass. Both J and I have learned our lessons. We are adjusting to living moer frugally and saving money instead of wanting to spend every extra dime we make.

I am excited for the new year. I hope that it brings all of us more luck and fortune.