Bored

I am so freaking bored. The interwebz are little to none entertaining me today. Farmville doesn't need to be tended to. I planet yellow melon specifically for the reason that, it taks 3 or 4 days to grow. Yippee. I could try to beat my high score on typing maniac. I don't know. I'm just bored.

Better

So, since Sunday, J and I hadn't spoke much until last night. It was bad. I mean, you could probably cut the tension with a butter knife it was so thick. I hate feeling that way. I hate knowing that something is bothering him but he won't talk about it. J isn't the most communicative person in the world. Neither am I, between the both of us, it takes a lot to make our marriage work. Don't get me wrong, I know this isn't easy, but sometimes I wonder if others have it easier. Yeah, life, marriage and other things in general aren't the fairy tale stories we've all heard growing, not puppies and rainbows, oh my god this is the greatest thing ever. It takes sacrafice, compromise and moments of utter disbelief. But in the end, I love him with all my heart. He is my all. Because of him, I have my 2 beautiful boys, whom I love with all my being. To imagine losing them, I can't even fathom, it kills me to even think about it. They are my all, my knights in shining armor. All my lovely men and little men.

Well we finally talked , mulled it over, got over whatever the freak was wrong, I cried and then felt better. J and I rarely fight, but when we do, it's bad, really tense, but we get it over with quickly. Forgive and forget.

This weekend.

I fully intend searching through every single box I have, to look for my poetry journal. I really really really want to share it with people, for them to see what talent I use to have. It has disappeared, I hope that looking through my old stuff will spark something in me. I use to love writing poems. In fact I kept a little notepad in my backpack or purse just in case I got the urge. It was wonderful. I really loved it.

Hopefully my quest will come to something good. We shall see though.

I guess

I guess it's been a few days since I posted anything. There's really nothing to say at this point. Besides, I am pretty sure that Josh is sitting next to me, being pissed off, for no apparent reason. I love men, they are so fucking easy to read. Yea, like I automatically know why you're pissed. Because, you know, I can totally read your mind, because I am fucking good like that. Pfft. Whatever, he'll get over it. Whatever it is.

We went to sun mountain fun center today, which is basically like a Chuck E Cheese. It was fun, we played ticket games, and had a fun but non winning game of bowling. My brothers girlfriend whomped everyone. She's pretty freaking good at it.

In other news. Caleb's 2nd tooth broke through either this morning or last night. So now my boobers has 2 teeth. They are coming in like crazy. Which is fun. Thankfully he's not too much of a grump.

Well there's my update for today.

Today

We went to a bbq at my Sister in laws house. It was fun, we had good food, great laughs, alcohol, and delicious cheesecake.

We had a bonfire, it was fun. I don't really have much to say. I just feel like rambling.

You know what blows? Tonight, we change the clocks one hour forward. So that means that I will be losing an hour of sleep. That really blows because I have to work in the morning. If I didn't, I wouldn't care. But I do and I do care. I wish they would just do away with DST. It is pointless, I am and have been tempted countless times to move to the part of AZ that doesn't have DST. Booo, time change, you suck!!!!!!!!!!!

3 things I'd like to change about myself

So, on my way to the prison I call work, I was listening to an early morning talk show, you may have heard of it, Kidd Kradic(sp?). They did a segment called, "3 Things I'd like to Change About Myself". So I thought I'd dedicate a post to things I'd like to change about me.

So, here we go.

1. I'd really like to change my body image, physically and mentally. I'm sure you could tell this if you read previous posts. I only mention it, Oh, about every other word or so. I know I can do it. I also know that I do not have the motivation to do it. I can spend the money on a gym membership. In the end I can almost guaruntee that would be a big fat waste of money.

2. After I lose my weight, I'd like to change the way my stomach looks, because god knows I will have skin hangage, which is just unattractive.

3. I'd like to change the way to function as a family. We need to do more fun stuff, instead of being couch potatoes.

So, there you have my deep, dark secrets (not really, but well, you know)

Follow me!

To my whole 3 followers. Thanks for reading this. I know it can be lame and uber boring, but I guess you don't care, because you're still following my blog.

The weather today, cannot make up it's mind. It was so pretty earlier, now I can see the snow clouds rolling in, which completely and utterly blows. I am so done with winter.

You'll see me in the picket line, with all the others boycotting winter. Go away, puh-lease. Snow is pretty, and we need it to fill the lakes, rivers and streams, but god almighty. Why does it have to be COLD. I would rather endure 100+ degrees than subzero temps. Brrrrrrrrr.


Now I am off to warm up, it's getting a bit nipply outside.

things are finally looking up at work

You know how when you had a sucky supervisor, it really sucks! That's how it has been for me since I returned to work in early November. I didn't know what I had gotten myself into at that point, I had never worked with said supervisor before. So I go on my merry way, soon to realize, that this particular supervisor sucks ass, in a big way. I dealt with it for almost 4 months. Thank sweet baby jesus, I don't have her as a supervisor anymore.

My new supervisor, she is wonderful. she takes the time to coach our team and make sure that we can be successful. As we all know, success feels amazing. We have this, club, I guess is the best way to explain it, that you can qualify for every month. It's called elite. I am so close to it I can smell it. I only need to improve my metrics a tid bit to join it. Which is so exciting for me. It makes me feel so good to know that I am so close.

Goodbye shitty supervisor, hello wonderful supervisor.