I miss friends

Once upon a time, there was a girl named Lindsey, who had a ton of friends. Then she became a hermit and her friends disappeared....

I don't know what has happened over the last 7-8 years. But I really don't have any good close friends anymore. I hate it. I don't have any girlfriends to go out with, just have fun with. I am so sad that I don't have this conenction with anyone. All the people I know aren't on the same page as me. They are married, but don't have kids. Or are too busy to get together.

I miss having someone to spend time with other than my husband. Sometimes I count on this for my own sanity. I need it, sometimes I crave it. But there's nothing I can do because I don't even know where to start. I don't know where to find friends. I have lived in this place for almost 8 years. I still don't know a lot of people. But what can I do? Try. But where to start is my biggest issue at hand.

My heart breaks for an internet stranger

The message board I frequent is tragic this morning. As we all find out that she, the internet stranger, gave birth to her daughter on Friday, July 31st. At the young age of 22weeks gestation. The poor baby didn't have a chance as a baby can't live outside the womb before 24 weeks. My heart breaks, I sat there in tears reading the update we all waited so patiently for. It wasn't the one we were hoping to read, actually the one we all feared. We hadn't heard from her in over a week. Last we knew she'd been admitted to Labor and Delivery. Her daughter passed away after just an hour of life. God I feel so terrible for them. I can't even describe it. There are no words to express what I feel for them.

Just know that she will stay in my thoughts, I hope that she and her husband heal well. It is going to be a long journey ahead for both of them.

It's been a while

So Caleb is now 5 weeks old. I can't believe it. He's growing so fast and getting cuter by the minute. I love him so much. My little Wyatt isn't so little anymore. He's turning 3, next Wednesday, the 5th of August.

Caleb goes in for his 6/8 week dr's appointment on the 10th of August. Where I am pretty sure he'll get shots. Sad. I hate when they get shots. Hopefully he'll be a trooper like big brother was. And calm down pretty quick. We shall see though.

Well I am getting my new cell phone today. I am actually waiting, impatiently for UPS to deliver it lol. I am going to see Jake Owen on Wednesday with my good friend Becca, and then Lady Antebellum on Friday. Busy busy week. Plus I have a shitload of cleaning to do this week.

Well I will update more later.

Out and about

Today, my mom came and stole Wyatt for the night! Yeah! So after they left, Caleb and I got ready for an outing. We went to work to see a couple people. We had lunch with Auntie Becca. Which was nice. She's one of my greatest friends. And we went and saw my old supervisor. Too bad she had a meeting to go to.

Then we went to my old work. I had to show him off to all the people I use to work with. Which was awesome. They love him. He kept on farting all over everyone. But oh well. No one minds. He has a party in his pants all the time lol. Well farting parties anyways. It was fun, we had fun.

My Touch

This is my new obsession. T-Mobile My Touch by Google. I have the order ready to be put through, then I think, oh yes, I have a husband that I have to ask to do every little thing first. It makes me feel like a child. Worthless, like he's my father. I feel like I can't make a decision for myself. EVER! I am a grown woman. I work, I make money too. albeit I am on maternity leave right now. But that's a moot point.

It's completely touchscreen, has 3g capabilities, and a program called Sherpa. Which learns your styles and soon recognizes your patterns. Ex. If you like Italian food, it remembers that and starts showing you all the eateries that are italian in your current area. Which I think is awesome. And it has tons of applications you can download. It is a competitor of the IPhone. As it sounds extremely similar.

Oh well. I work for T-Mobile. So I get to order this phone and get it before customers do. So as I think about just pushing that damn upgrade now button sitting patiently on another browser page, I remember that I don't want to start shit with my hubz. Bah!

Photo Shoot

This morning I took Caleb for his newborn shoot! He was such a good boy. I was surprised. But thankful. The only thing that was a slight mishap was the giant sized spit up he did. Good thing our photog used to run a daycare for she didn't mind. She loved him. Other than that I am impatiently waiting for her to edit pics so I can see them all. There's a couple really good ones that I've had a taste of so far. I am extremely impressed by her pics so far. I can't wait to see them all! Yeah!

random.. I like being random

So, since it's 345am and I can't sleep, I will be random.
Well not really random. There's not much on TV at 345 in the morning. But oh well. I'm watching mtv music videos. So that's when they show them all? In the middle of the effin night. MTV has turned into the channel of horrid reality tv shows. Like parental control, next, and all the real world type shows. They do have the AMTV now but I swear they show the same lame videos every morning.

I am going to watch Jake Owen and Lady Antebellum at the end of the month. Got free tix for the County Fair. We don't get bigish artists here very often so it's fun. I haven't been to a concert since I was 14 or 15. That was 10 years ago. Almost 11. That makes me feel old. The person I saw in concert is now a has been. Bryan White, anyone heard of him now? I haven't in years. I'm excited. I am going with my new good friend Becca. Because hubs is a butthead and doesn't want to go. But it'll give me some fun time. I don't get to have funtime that often. But it's ok. I have my boys. I stay home for the most part and enjoy them.

Well I really should try to sleep. Tomorrow isn't going to be fun. Nighty night!