Dad and his boys

Watching You lyrics
Driving through town just my boy and me
With a happy meal in his booster seat
Knowing that he couldn't have the toy
Till his nuggets were gone
Green traffic light turned straight to red
I hit my breaks and mumbled under my breath
His fries went a flying and his orange drink covered his lap
Well then my four year old said a four letter word
That started with "s" and I was concerned
So I said son now where did you learn to talk like that
[Chorus one]
He said I've been watching you dad, ain't that cool
I'm your buckaroo,
I wanna be like you
And eat all my food and grow as tall as you are
We got cowboy boots and camo pants
Yeah we're just alike, hey ain't we dad
I wanna do everything you do
So I've been watching you

We got back home and I went to the barn
I bowed my head and I prayed real hard
Said lord please help me help my stupid self
Then this side of bedtime later that night
Turning on my son's scooby doo nightlight
He crawled out of bed and he got down on his knees
He closed his little eyes, folded his little hands
And spoke to god like he was talking to a friend
And I said son now where'd you learn to pray like that
[Chorus two]
He said I've been watching you dad, ain't that cool
I'm your buckaroo, I wanna be like you
And eat all my food and grow as tall as you are
We like fixing things and holding mama's hand
Yeah we're just alike, hey ain't we dad
I wanna do everything you do
So I've been watching you
[Bridge]
With tears in my eyes I wrapped him in a hug
Said my little bear is growing up
He said but when I'm big I'll still know what to do
[Chorus three]
Cause I've been watching you dad, ain't that cool
I'm your buckaroo, I wanna be like you
And eat all my food and grow as tall as you are
By then I'll be as strong as superman
We'll be just alike, hey won't we dad
When I can do everything you do
Cause I've been watching you

This song reminds me of them everyday. Josh loves the boys so much. He's such a good dad. I couldn't ask for anything more than that. He plays with them. Helps me changed diapers and even gets up for midnight feedings and lets me sleep. Which I appreciate more than anything. I am thankful that he does get up and help, because I know a lot of women aren't as fortunate as I am and their husbands don't get up to help.

Be thankful for what you have, and who you've got in your life. They won't be there forever.

The last 3 years

They have been, well, amazing. I love my Wyatt so much. I can't imagine life without him. We had a rough start, but all is well now. I am so glad that he recovered from his birth. It wasn't that great. He was born with an issue with his epiglotus. Where he couldn't breathe very well. Thankfully it turned around in just under a week and he came home after 6 days in the NICU. But now he's a very very energetic 3 year old. He is growing by leaps and bounds. My 3 year old looks like he just turned 4 or 5 years old. He's huge. Weighs at least 40lbs and is at lest 39-40inches tall. We get comments on how big he is all the time. People don't realize that he's only 3. But that's ok. I love him anyways.

I miss friends

Once upon a time, there was a girl named Lindsey, who had a ton of friends. Then she became a hermit and her friends disappeared....

I don't know what has happened over the last 7-8 years. But I really don't have any good close friends anymore. I hate it. I don't have any girlfriends to go out with, just have fun with. I am so sad that I don't have this conenction with anyone. All the people I know aren't on the same page as me. They are married, but don't have kids. Or are too busy to get together.

I miss having someone to spend time with other than my husband. Sometimes I count on this for my own sanity. I need it, sometimes I crave it. But there's nothing I can do because I don't even know where to start. I don't know where to find friends. I have lived in this place for almost 8 years. I still don't know a lot of people. But what can I do? Try. But where to start is my biggest issue at hand.

My heart breaks for an internet stranger

The message board I frequent is tragic this morning. As we all find out that she, the internet stranger, gave birth to her daughter on Friday, July 31st. At the young age of 22weeks gestation. The poor baby didn't have a chance as a baby can't live outside the womb before 24 weeks. My heart breaks, I sat there in tears reading the update we all waited so patiently for. It wasn't the one we were hoping to read, actually the one we all feared. We hadn't heard from her in over a week. Last we knew she'd been admitted to Labor and Delivery. Her daughter passed away after just an hour of life. God I feel so terrible for them. I can't even describe it. There are no words to express what I feel for them.

Just know that she will stay in my thoughts, I hope that she and her husband heal well. It is going to be a long journey ahead for both of them.

It's been a while

So Caleb is now 5 weeks old. I can't believe it. He's growing so fast and getting cuter by the minute. I love him so much. My little Wyatt isn't so little anymore. He's turning 3, next Wednesday, the 5th of August.

Caleb goes in for his 6/8 week dr's appointment on the 10th of August. Where I am pretty sure he'll get shots. Sad. I hate when they get shots. Hopefully he'll be a trooper like big brother was. And calm down pretty quick. We shall see though.

Well I am getting my new cell phone today. I am actually waiting, impatiently for UPS to deliver it lol. I am going to see Jake Owen on Wednesday with my good friend Becca, and then Lady Antebellum on Friday. Busy busy week. Plus I have a shitload of cleaning to do this week.

Well I will update more later.

Out and about

Today, my mom came and stole Wyatt for the night! Yeah! So after they left, Caleb and I got ready for an outing. We went to work to see a couple people. We had lunch with Auntie Becca. Which was nice. She's one of my greatest friends. And we went and saw my old supervisor. Too bad she had a meeting to go to.

Then we went to my old work. I had to show him off to all the people I use to work with. Which was awesome. They love him. He kept on farting all over everyone. But oh well. No one minds. He has a party in his pants all the time lol. Well farting parties anyways. It was fun, we had fun.

My Touch

This is my new obsession. T-Mobile My Touch by Google. I have the order ready to be put through, then I think, oh yes, I have a husband that I have to ask to do every little thing first. It makes me feel like a child. Worthless, like he's my father. I feel like I can't make a decision for myself. EVER! I am a grown woman. I work, I make money too. albeit I am on maternity leave right now. But that's a moot point.

It's completely touchscreen, has 3g capabilities, and a program called Sherpa. Which learns your styles and soon recognizes your patterns. Ex. If you like Italian food, it remembers that and starts showing you all the eateries that are italian in your current area. Which I think is awesome. And it has tons of applications you can download. It is a competitor of the IPhone. As it sounds extremely similar.

Oh well. I work for T-Mobile. So I get to order this phone and get it before customers do. So as I think about just pushing that damn upgrade now button sitting patiently on another browser page, I remember that I don't want to start shit with my hubz. Bah!