can't put it into words

I love to read, why can't I be more creative when it comes to putting my own thoughts into words. Maybe it's because I am afraid no one will like it? I guess the fear of failure hits me in a lot of ways. Or not wanting to sound like an idiot after I have published a post.

I know I have the damn creative bug, I just can't get it to work right. Damn thing doesn't cooperate. I start stuff, then it frustrates the living shit out of me, and I put it away for later. A lot of times I do go finish it at a later date, but there are those times that I don't finish it at all. I know that is a really bad trait to have. I just can't kick it, or in all honesty, I haven't tried to kick it.

We are planning on a night away next month, for J's 27th birthday. We are trying to decide what we want to do. We know we want to stay somewhere overnight. But where or where shall we go..

Can't wait

So, I am usually not excited about shift changes at work, but this time around I am so stoked I can't even tell you. I don't like my coach(supervisor), she is lazy and doesn't do her job well. I don't even see how she got promoted to this position.

We only have 2 short weeks left til I change schedules and teams. YIPPEE!!!!!!

I am ready to move on and be done with her, so ready.

So, I called the dr..

about my never ending cycles, you know what the fucking nurse tells me. Take some ibuprofen for the cramps and call me back next week if it's still happening. W...T...F? is wrong with that picture. Just about every freaking thing.

This pisses me off. I have never ever had problems like this. I really think my IUD is fucking me up.

Shit shit shit.

I wish this would stop

I have pcos. No it's not a known fact by all. I am a pretty private person and people don't need to know what's going on with my lady parts unless I deem it necessary. Anywho, every since I had Caleb. I have been so screwed up, it really sucks. Weird cycles, if you can even call it a cycle. It seems like every time I get pregnant and have a kid, the symptoms get worse after I have given birth.

I hate this shit. I am in pain about 70% of the time from cramps. I don't know what the F my body is doing but it needs to stop, like yesterday. Boo hiss. I guess I just needed to whine and let it be known.

Sookie Stackhouse

I just started reading this series. I lurve it so far. At first I liked Bill. He seemed like a nice guy. Now that I am getting further into the series, he is turning into a big creep. I don't see what sookie see's in him. I know ladies and gents. He is a fictional character, but still.

For now, I like Alcide.

I really think that sookie needs to be with Eric. He seems so much more a fit to her than VB. Because of him, she always get into sticky situations. She is Charlaine Harris's own version on Stephanie Plum. I think so anyways. I have made it to the 4th book. I can't wait to get through the rest of them, but I know I will be disappointed when it's over because I want to read more.

Lazy Sunday

Today, it's lazy, there's nothing else to describe it. I feel like I haven't slept in about a decade. I don't know why I am so tired. I think I lost my caffiene buzz and spiraled down into the bottom of the black hole of sleep deprivation. The funny thing is that my sleep deprivation isn't because I have a 7 month old baby, it's because I have a hard time sticking to a normal sleep routine and I have to get up at the buttcrack of dawn to go to work.

I can't wait for my shift to change at work. I don't like my coach(supervisor). In my personal opinion she sucks at the job. I haven't hardly had any feedback on how I am doing. If I haven't had that, how the eff am I suppose to improve? There's a lot of people on my team that don't care for her. I think we're all ready to move on and get a fresh start, away from her.

I guess this whole post is random. They are all pretty much random. Maybe I don't update often enough to stick to one subject. Is this suppose to tell me something? Hum, is this a sign? Should I start blogging more. I want to, I know it's a great release. But honestly. I don't feel like I ever have anything important to contribut to the world, or the interwebz.

I love it

So recently, I started reading the Sookie Stackhouse series by Charlaine Harris. I must say that I love it. It's super addicting and easy to read. I can definitely see why everyone loves Eric.
I am only on the 2nd book right now. I am excited to get through the other 7 of them though. I love long series. It just really sucks when they come to an end though.
I would write more but I don't want to spoil anything for anyone that wants to and hasn't read them before.

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