Aaaalllll Aboard! Pity Train, Party of 1

These next couple of weeks are a very emotional time for me, every year, since I was 14 years old. I will post another blog when the time is right, and explain.

I don't know what to think, what to say, merely what to do. I am lost in a sea of confusion. There's things that I need, want, but know won't be coming my way in the near future.
Sometimes it's just not fair, I know that I just have to deal.
I don't want to go back to work at the end of next month. I want to stay home with Wyatt and Caleb. But that just isn't feasible. I know this in my head, but not in my heart. It would put a huge financial strain on us, which we just can't do right now. I have health and dental benefits throuh my job, which are A-Mazing. Plus, our cell phones are uber cheap. If I quit, I would lose all of this. Which is not smart, actually is pretty stupid. So i know I will be going back to work based solely on this reason alone.

Pooh, I'll get over it, eventually. Thanks for reading my nonsense