Acceptance

It is one thing to feel accepted by a group of people, but feel like no one notices you at all. To crave that feeling of friends and support. knowing that someone is there for you no matter what you have going on in life.

It's been a long time since I've been accepted, I wish I was accepted by more people. I don't see that happening in the near future. Is it sad to say that I really only have one friend that cares enough to spend the day with me? Well at least one that's close enough to spend the day with me. I appreciate her more than anyone can know. Even if we just sit there and talk about nothing. She's still spending the day with me, that is what I love

I don't know what's happened in the last few years, but I have seemed to push away all of my friends. I don't know if it has happened because of the anti-social man I married that likes to do nothing more than sit on his ass and be obsessed with the TV, or if I have become just like him.

I am constantly exhausted, I have the excuse of an infant and a toddler, but they can't always be the blame. It's because all I do is sit on my fatass and watch TV. I have hardly any physical activities. I don't because I am always exhausted. that's just the way it is. I know there are things I can do about it, but the motivation just isn't there. Not one fucking bit. I don't have the support I need to get out and do things. I need someone there to kick my ass and make me get up and do it.