Purging of the clothes

I guess there is a time in everyones life, where you just have to do it. To go through the dreaded closet and drawers to get rid of clothes that are worn out and don't fit anymore. also, most likely will never fit again.
I really need to do this, but I am afraid that when all is said and done, I will have 2 pair of jeans and about 5 shirts that really fit me. It will make reality hit me hard, that yes, I am a fatass and everyone else knows it but me.

There is also a time when enough is enough, and I have to start eating healthier and working out again. It is so hard to change your diet when this one is all you've known for, I don't know how long. I must do it, for my health, for my children and for my husband. so that I can stop downing myself and finally, for once in a very long time. Feel good about myself. It has been a long time since I have felt good about myself. In all truth, it has been about 10 years. The last time I felt good about myself is when I was 15 years old. When I was in shape and thin(ner) than I am now.

so i am making a promise to myself that I will go through and purge clothes and that I will get my ass back on track, and get in shape again.